What could have been a Saturday to forget. A day to be alive but not one for the books. But then the call and the clouds and the hovering above and the stepping over in an attempt to make you reappear. I couldn’t find you among your own things, the few things you called home.… Read More Epistolary
It’s here, under these very trees, that my brother and I spent our childhood. Playing, escaping, running to and from things. The beautiful and the terrifying entered the woods with us. But here is where I find peace in his absence. Where even the sun has to work to break in and bring light; where… Read More Mise en Scène
Mental illness and addiction have affected one side of my family for generations. The stigma attached to both of these afflicitons (although often one in the same) have silenced those suffering and their families. Mental illness is a disease; addiction is often seen as a choice, but so frequently lies alongside mental illness as a… Read More World Mental Health Day
I’m learning that my new normal is living life and missing my brother. The two will be deep-rooted lifelong friends. I remember him asking me once how I was always so happy, and at the time I gave some under-thought response. If I could go back and change one thing, it would be to hear… Read More Hearing Between the Lines
Some days I forget we grew older and the sliver of space between us broke-open wider as we filled it with travel and companions and children. There is a saying about being broken-open. It’s how the light gets in.
This picture really speaks the the new ‘current mood’ I’m becoming acquainted with. My cousin and I call It happy/sad and It isn’t deeper than that, but a stark contrast to how I felt before. Before, I was just happy and I am a huge lover of all things life (especially my lighthouse of a… Read More Making Space for Joy
It’s been almost six months since he passed. In that time, I’ve gotten a lot of advice and support and new friendships and I’ve even shed old skins. Our society doesn’t like death. It makes us nervous and anxious and since we don’t know how to ‘solve’ It, we walk away from funerals thinking we… Read More Cosmic Birthday